it makes no sense

i'm not sure if i can fathom the things that you did. i'm not sure if i can accept it. it's not my call to judge and i certainly am trying hard not to say anything. it is your perogative to do whatever it is that your heart or mind so wish or desire. spend a few hundred bucks on mom's birthday present? of course. spend time with close friends? definitely. have casual sex with a total stranger? why not.

i'm not exactly sure wot it is that provoked me to write this entry. wot it is that evoked such a strong feeling with regards to your action. i don't think i am upset that you did wot you did. perhaps it is because you did wot you did without telling me. and here i thought we share almost everything. perhaps. maybe.

i feel like a prude. not being able to 'go with the flow'. times have changed and we are all much older. we all know the consequences of our actions. i guess it's not fair for me to tell you wot i think because i have no right to impose my opinions on you. you have a mind of your own. you can do what it is that you like.

like i said before, i know it is not my call to judge. and i'm trying my best not to say anything. i guess i'm still a child. naive and ignorant.

if it means nothing and if we don't feel anything, i guess it's alright... right?

maybe it is true. i am just pretty perturbed that you chose not to tell me in person and blog it down instead. i'm feeling light-headed.