hmmm, is that a threat?

there's a soccer field near my place and they had it all fenced up. i'm not being rude but if the government had so much money to fence the field, i suggest they put in some money to put up some proper signboard!

'trespasser police will inform'? who will the police inform!? us? haha.. it was so hilarious! i just couldn't stop laughing when i saw it! how ridiculous! that's what happens when you let the construction workers (i'm being very careful as to not be racist) who did the fence for you, write the warning sign!

amazingly and hilariously ridiculous!

in case you were wondering...

my computer crashed about one week ago and i've hardly had a chance to get my hands on any computers except those in the office. even so, those computers are not connected to the internet. it's weird not being connected to the internet. not having to read and see wot's going on in the outside world. it's like you're totally living in the dark.

it's amazing how we have become so dependable on technology that when they fail on us, we feel completely lost and perhaps, as in my case, fall to pieces. i had so much to say and so much emotions trapped within me i thought it will consume me! oh dear, i'm starting to sound like a nut!

in any case, i wasn't feeling all too well, especially when i couldn't really blog. and so, my mother bought me a new phone!! hehe. ok, bimbotic post alert.

MY NEW PHONE!!


i love love lurve my new phone. it's amazingly slim, exquisitely designed and so pretty! i'm only attracted to it because it's pretty! haha. i'm completely gay, i tell you and it's starting to scare me! haha. i revel in discovering new things on my new phone. i still have no idea how to change the ringtones. as in, put a song as my ringtone. i was on the bus the other day (thus, debunking the fact that i'm spoiled as some of my friends had suggested) and i saw this girl whipping out her razr as it was ringing. her ringtone was alicia key's 'if i ain't got you' if i'm not wrong. up till today, i've no clue how to go about doing that! argh! somebody help me please!

meanwhile, i've been watching alot of dvds lately and the most recent one is the beautiful movie called 'before sunset'. i honestly think it's one of the best movie ever made! the plot is so simple the cinematography is even simpler. i mean, the movie basically only have two actors - ethan hawke and julie dephy. but it was the issues that they brought forth that made the movie so intriguing.

i realised, after watching the movie, that my ideas or perception of life and love are somewhat similar to celine's (julie dephy's character). it's amazing how well you can connect to a certain character from a movie. like celine, i am an independent individual and by that i mean that i don't need a man in my life to feed me because i can do that myself. nonetheless, having said that, i need a man to love me so that i can love and be loved. i'm not exactly sure what it is that i want in a man but i don't think i need a man in a way that he would complete me. it's as if i'm not complete until i find a lover - the one. and like celine, i completely believe that the concept of the one is so wrong because it's like you ceased to exist fully without finding the one. the notion of the phrase 'the one' made it seems like you need someone to complete you, thus making your life more fulfilling and perhaps, give meaning to your life.

watching 'before sunset' and hearing what celine had to say made me think back to another gorgeous movie i watched a couple of months back. 'the notebook' by nicholas sparks tells a tale of undying love and the idea of a soulmate or 'the one'. at the end of the story the lead's wife passes on in his arms and within a few minutes he passes on as well.

it is romantic, i concur. i mean they were faced with many obstacles and challenges and yet at the end of the day they are together and they die in each other's arms, that's simply romantic and sweet.

however, i couldn't help but to feel that in that moment of sweetness and romanticism, therein lies a tinge of sadness or rather something quite depressing. i mean, it's the idea that you only have one person or soulmate in your life that when that person dies, you in turn, ceased to exist. and thus, in that, you need a person to complete you because without that person in your life, you lose your own life. it's quite a depresing thought isn't it? somehow it makes me not want to meet my soulmate.

even if we don't take it in it's literal sense that we actually die when our soulmate dies, it's that idea that we begin to lose ourselves, we begin to slowly but gradually stop living - which i think is scary.

maybe i should stop idealising things.


"memories are wonderful things
if we don't have to deal with the past"
- before sunset