don't make promises you can't keep.

how do you know you're in love? when the smallest thing he did makes you mad!

as it turns out, i'm not going out for dinner with phil coming wednesday. i'm freaking pissed. i know it's not his fault but i just can't help feeling soooo.. i dunno wot's the best word to describe it. i know he has his reasons not to but i don't see why when he made that decision which affected our dinner, he didn't think of telling me. i had to find it out myself! argh!

i didn't reply to his last sms and minutes later he sms-ed me again, telling me he's sorry. he doesn't have to apologise. i'm not his and he isn't mine. we're not together. ahhh, this is getting so complicated i don't even know wot to do!

i hate it when you make me laugh
and even worse
when you make me cry

I'm still mad at him and i don't think i should. but, i love him all at the same time. it's crazy. half of me wants to just go over to NTU hostel on wednesday and surprise him with dinner and hi belated birthday present.. the other half just wants to slap him, curl up in bed and die.

but mostly, i hate the way i don't hate you;
not even close
not even a little bit,
not even at all.