a not so happy experience..

last night was the first time i stepped into happy. i wasn't feeling too hot about clubbing the past year or so but last night.. i wouldn't miss it for the world! it was mariah tribute night and nothing in the world can stop me from going down and shake my booty off to mariah's music!

honestly, for the first two hours of the nite, i was wondering whether their idea of a mariah tribute night was actually just flashing photos of mariah on the screen! two hours in the club and not even one mariah song blasted over the system! i was completely losing my patience at the tranny manning the dj booth!

and then it started.. my all remix! my gawd i almost creamed in my pants. we just went crazy and go wild on the dance floor. it was amerie/ciara/rihanna/destiny's child/mariah attempting to dance on the dance floor.. crunking it up and livin' it up! amazing! my favourite. fantasy remix! i think we worked the crowd into a frenzy. we came as a group and didn't care who was on the floor! when ODB started rapping.. we went crazy! we were jumping and screaming and throwing our hands up in the air! pretty soon everyone was doing the same thing! honestly speaking, i could set up my own drag show! hahaha. i was mouthing/screaming all the mariah songs like there was no tomorrow!

and then came the worst part of my night. ok maybe not the worst part. it was rather thrilling.. gross nonetheless but thrilling. some guy came up front and dance with me. i thought it was an innocent dance, right!? no! ok, so we were grinding to some song which i can't remember now and ym left the dance floor to tend to paris who had backaches. as soon as ym left me, the guy leaned back and pulled my head to him and stuck is tongue down my throat! argh! gross!

ok, not so much gross but i was really taken aback! i seriously had no idea wot the hell to do.. for a few seconds i just stood there and then i stuck my tongue out. then i pushed him away. oh god it was a long dance! i was hoping for someone to save me and since my friends thought i was having fun, i had to wait for mariah to save me.

he tongued me thrice! and he took my hands and push it down his pants. god! he was hard while i... couldn't even beginto consider getting aroused! it was my first time! not my first time snoggin or kissing on the dance floor. but my first time kissing... ever!

on hindsight, i was really affected, not so much so that he violated me. i mean it was rather thrilling! a total stranger coming up to you and started snogging you! wot are the odds?? nonetheless, that wasn't the reason. he crushed my dreams. i didn't want my first kiss to be that! and that was it, in a span of a few seconds.. my first kiss taken away from me!

i was kinda shaken when we left happy. jinesh, as usual, made it seemed like it was not even worth thinking about. i dunno. i was shaken and i don't need you to go around making light of how i felt. ah, you'll never understand how i feel.

i miss nicolas. i'm not sure why since i've never really met him. and that's why i hate dealing with things like this! he's so far away! so why am i feeling like this?


and so the story goes...